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The Danger of Feeling by electrolytic, literature

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The Danger of Feeling

The Danger of Feeling My soul My life My all Is yours Were you only to love me. My heart Would I offer before you To keep close to yours, To have for all time Were you only to love me. You didn\'t want to hurt me? So why do I hurt so. You gave no false hope? So why did I hold such hope in me heart. My fault? You fault? It matters but little And it changes nothing. Because now a coldness enfolds my heart And my body turns numb As fate unfolds it\'s cruel hand To teach me the danger of feeling. electrolytic January 2003

Comfort Inexplicable by electrolytic, literature

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Comfort Inexplicable

Comfort Inexplicable Cold steel against my skin - Cold as the hand around my heart. These tears inside I force them down, Don't want the world to see me. It would be a comfort, Nothing but fear holds me back. How to describe The way I feel? This emotion that engulfs me. But don't give me pity Because I don't need your shallow sympathy. Don't say you understand Because there is no way you could Because not even I understand. electrolytic 7 December 2002

Alone by electrolytic by electrolytic, literature

Living For Fear of Dying by electrolytic, literature

Last Act of Service by electrolytic, literature

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Last Act of Service

Last Act of Service =================== How can this come from love? How can she hate me so much When all I have done is love her. She hands me the key. What did I do wrong? How could I not have been good enough When my sole desire was her happiness. She leads me down the passage. Did I try to do too much? How could I have scared her When it was I who was scared of rejection. She turns the key in the safe. Is my hair the wrong colour? How can looks matter When I offered her my soul. She takes out the gun. You have done this to me. You have broken my heart. You have destroyed my self-belief. So let me pull the trigger for

Fear Of Perception by electrolytic, literature

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Fear Of Perception

Fear Of Perception =============== Strength Is my shield Bravado Is my veil I hide myself From the eyes of others That they may not perceive Who I am I do not want them to see The weakness That I struggle to overcome, The insecurities That are my master, The tears That threaten to shame me. Why do I fear? If such is in me, Why do I hide it? I know not But still I fear. electrolytic 15 October 2002

my soul on paper by electrolytic, literature

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my soul on paper

Ink flowing through the pen, Like the thoughts in my head. I watch the words as they appear, Not truly knowing how they were formed. As I comprehend what is written I start to see myself - My soul is reflected on my page, My life poured out into the mold of words. Why have I done this? I have turned my thoughts To tangible form. What if somebody sees it? What if nobody sees it?

Losing you -by electrolytic- by electrolytic, literature

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Losing you -by electrolytic-

She stands out, A jewel amongst the ordinary people, An angel amongst sinners. I want to talk to her I want to look into her soul And I want to show her mine. She will never talk to me- Why should she? There is nothing special about me. So why do I feel like I must talk to her? Why do I feel like she is part of me- Something that is missing but now is in sight. He is talking to her. He wonders about her father's accent- Where do you come from? Are you Russian? Stupid questions he uses to make contact- Can't he see she is special? She will never notice me. She likes him, She smiles at him, She laughs at his jokes. I do no

A kind word by electrolytic, literature

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A kind word

A kind word! I am ecstatic, My heart threatens to explode, The air is sweet, The world is a joyful, kind place. Where has it gone? Where is my kind word? I look around and panic. She is gone. The world twists Into an ugly thing, What once was beautiful, Snarls menacingly, The air turns into thick black poison- It eats my heart Until I am a hollow, bitter, angry creature With no soul.

Raindrops on a Tin Awning by electrolytic, literature

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When Friends Become Lovers by electrolytic, literature

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When Friends Become Lovers

What happens When friends become lovers? How does the relationship Move from silly, To serious? A fleeting glance, An ambiguous statement, A touch That means more than what it should. Knowing what is coming But not saying it, Moving in the same direction Towards the inevitable. A coy look; a nervous stance. My hands on her back, The smell of her hair, Her breasts perfect in my hands; The pleasure on her face. A sudden stop. A realisation Of the increased depth of the relationship. Confusion-what to feel? When the line has been crossed, Can lovers become friends?

Raindrops on a Tin Awning by electrolytic, literature

A kind word by electrolytic, literature

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A kind word

Losing you -by electrolytic- by electrolytic, literature

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Losing you -by electrolytic-

my soul on paper by electrolytic, literature

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my soul on paper

Fear Of Perception by electrolytic, literature

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Fear Of Perception

Last Act of Service by electrolytic, literature

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Last Act of Service

Living For Fear of Dying by electrolytic, literature

Alone by electrolytic by electrolytic, literature

Comfort Inexplicable by electrolytic, literature

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Comfort Inexplicable

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Trangress into Life by Lady-Blue, literature

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Trangress into Life

Unearth the skeletal structure of my uncommon savagery and uneven sense of being. Teach me to be the balanced equation that you desire so that I may dance alongside your mathematical happiness. Erase the artwork that takes simplicity from my life. Wrench me out of chaos. Frighten me into snowstorm pleasure. You drag me through new, non-existent worlds. Color me white, gentle rabbi, and lend me sereness that will Allow my body to remain in its vibrant grave and my soul to dissolve Profoundly.

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South Africa
Deviant for 21 years
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Current Residence: South Africa
Favourite genre of music: Rock
Favourite photographer: Mahali Nagi
Favourite style of art: Poetry
Operating System: Mandrake 9.2
MP3 player of choice: XMMS
Shell of choice: GNome
Favourite cartoon character: Calvin & Hobbes, Garfield
Personal Quote: You only find the truth when you stop looking.

Favourite Visual Artist

Salvador Dali

Favourite Movies

Pulp Fiction

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Pink Floyd

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SWAT

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Life, fountain pen, keyboard

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Guitar, electronics, music, poetry,

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electrolytic

Feb 9, 2004

Back again

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Well.  It's been years since I've done this.  Literally years. I read all my previous journal comments and I was shocked to find out that I'm still feeling the same.  How to move on is the question. Of course it doesn't help that the person who caused the pain in the first place keeps popping out of the woodwork. Sigh.

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electrolytic

Dec 8, 2002

Devious Journal Entry

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What do you do when you're so sad there's only one person you want to talk to and you can't talk to them?

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electrolytic

Dec 7, 2002

Devious Journal Entry

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I don't think she likes me.  I think she won't tell me because she doesn't want to hurt my feelings. I wish she would just tell me either way, she's forcing me to be blunt and ask her now. Oh well, so much for trying not to be sceptical.

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SilenBlues

May 19, 2005

thanx 4 the FAV!

we appreciate it a LOT !

Designamite

Jan 11, 2004

uuuUUuuUu powerfull

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Lady-Blue

Nov 13, 2003

Again, thanks for all your comments. They're always helpful.

Amy

Lady-Blue

Jul 11, 2003

awww... your comment made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I'm glad I could help. :) (Smile)

spyed

Apr 10, 2003

Have you ever had a dream, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?

What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire deviant life, that there's something wrong with the story. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad.

You take the blue pill, the story ends. Your browser closes and you believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland. And, I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

I offer only the truth, nothing more.

Take: The Red Pill
Take: The Blue Pill

Fella

spyed, nobody has ever done this before.
Ninja

I know. That's why it's going to work.

Do not try and bend the spoon ...

where have you been